Once a suicidal atheist, I was transformed by Jesus after seeing Fellowship for Performing Arts’ theatrical production of C.S. Lewis’ The Screwtape Letters.
I was raised in Santa Monica, California, by loving, secular Jewish parents, but rejected God at the young age of nine. I spent the next twenty years of my life trying to fill what Blaise Pascal called the “infinite abyss” with everything around me, chasing sex, romance, approval, and affirmation. The result: a failed marriage, deep self-loathing, and bottomless despair.
Somehow, in the midst of adultery and clinical depression, I earned my Master’s degree in Professional Writing from the University of Southern California and started a successful writing business with my husband. But I threw all that away—together with any desire to put pen to paper—when I destroyed my marriage.
Rejoicing Crushed Bones: How a Suicidal Atheist Was Transformed by Jesus is a real, honest recounting of my journey—complete with unfiltered truth and the occasional dirty word—a raw testimony of salvation. But more than simply tell this story, I invite you to delve into actual journal entries and emails documenting the chaos in my head as I spiraled out of control, the writing exercises that became part of my healing, and the internal intellectual debates as I questioned atheism, New Age spirituality, God, and Jesus.
This is not just a story of transformation. It is a step-by-step account of my metamorphosis from a stiff-necked cynic into a joyful new creation.